Reboot - Going back to the beginning
So yeah, our computer crashed and I have to start over. For whatever reason it locks up everytime it starts. It wont do anything, and I dont understand, so I am starting over. This may take a while but I think it will be worth it.
I am finding that with a lot of my problems thats what I have to do, I have to start over. I have to go back to where I know it works. So yeah this is where it gets spiritual. : )
This past weekend I was really challenged by Francis Chan, I heart him speak I would say for total of 5-6 hours this weekend. Thats a lot of Francis Chan and it was awesome. In one message he looked at Luke 14 “the cost of discipleship”. It was simply put in a way that Jesus was asking who wanted to follow Him. And here it is Jesus is like “I am walking out that door, and I am leaving, who wants to follow?” Most hands go up. Jesus says, “I want to warn you, that you may never see any of your family and friends again if you follow me out that door.” A lot of hands go down, and “there is a good chance we will die.” Jesus isnt saying please, he isnt telling them how great it will be, he does say, I do have life in my and if you are with me you will have life too.
I think that is the message I heard, I mean I did hear that Jesus would forgive me and give me a new life, but I understood that it was His life, he bought the rights to me and I was glad, because I was a wicked master for my own life. I needed a new boss. Some where along the way I started to think again that it was about me being happy, about me feeling good about where I was in life, somewhere I thought it was about my wife and kids and my retirement and being able to be a grandpa and…..wait I think I just wrote a Hallmark Card. But anyway, it is not about all those things!
Joy is found in the Holy Spirit, in obedience to the word, comfort is so weak compared to this. Comfort is a trap, it is a couch and your favorite TV show, it is a nice dinner, it is a stroll on the beach. In this people believe they have gained thier life, they have attained something, Jesus said, this is not a life that you can keep anyone who wants to keep his life will lose it!
At this conference I found myself saying, God I want to lose my life for you, I want to lose all the things that make me comfortable, Please Lord, wont you reveal your plan for my life or alteast remove the things that keep me from seeing clearly.
I think this is the way I use to be, I was so bold for Jesus, I had nothing to lose, now i have things and a family and I am so grateful everyday I am grateful, but in my heart it is becoming clearer, that I have a need, I need my Jesus, I need to be near Him, I need to hear his voice, Pray for me to have clarity and what it means to Reboot my life. The funny thing is, I have done this before and the comforting thing is, know it is all because God is not finished with me and He is going to reboot me : )
